semput! thesis is still in progress

alamak. ape aku buat nii.. adoi.. i only have less than 6 hours to finish up my RAW THESIS. without spss analysis. ntah la. pasrah!.

maybe u can diagnose me as a patient of attention deficit disorder! my mind is always wondering around. couldnt concentrate after half an hour. i feel so anxious tht i can never finish up my thesis.

at first, i tot of repeating all the test.. i wanna do a better test, with a better result, including all strains of bacteria which i am supposed to do at the beginning of the semester. urgh. i ended up with only p.aeruginosa and e.coli. i repeat, ONLY!.

i know my SV is damn frustrated with me. i'm frustrated with myself too. but what can i do? i never expect this to happen. OH THE WORST THING IN MY LIFE!

how am i going to sell myself with this poor-quality-final-year-project. i'm afraid that i will fail again.

these are all stuffs that were piled up in my head.

whatever, i'm just going to do my best. yes, my best! going to send my SUPER RAW thesis to my SV tmrw. nid to write a letter to my 'beloved' mentor, mentioning about passing up the thesis at the end of next week instead of compulsarily-monday.

and random thing here is.. i miss you Azeem. ops i miss you too Azli (rindu tak terhingge kat abg)

And Azeem, dah 4 bulan tak dengar berite since he sent me this

"lupekan sume janji sy, sy janji sy takkan ganggu dan contact awak lagi. maafkan saya" (lebih kurang la)

oh, my heart still broken due to the loss of a great bestfriend. he's one of them. the only boy-bestfriend i've ever had. i got to knew him online, we have known each other since last year in May. i met him for the first time, unexpectedly, in last november. he is ordinary. funny. and can be BLOODY ANNOYING for making  stupid jokes, and calling me at 3am almost everynight.  i never be that annoyed with anyone except him. the most important thing is, he gave me moral supports when i'm having a huge crisis my cik abang. and now, everytime my boyfriend went sailing, his memories keep hurting me. i'm hurt since i know there is no other way for me to contact him again.

i miss you aquada90z@yahoo.com

;'(