hurting inside.

why why why...

why would this happened to us? why dont u give ur understanding like in the last time? i've never meant to hurt you. i have no intention to do that. i love u so much tht i will let myself hurting inside.

this. i've post this on my fb wall. i wish tht u will read this.

I just learned that you've listed me in so called 'restricted friend', a new way of friend classification in facebook perhaps. And so I wont be able to see anymore updates from you. (It was just like you're blocking me without clicking on 'unfriend' option).
'Thanx' for saving my time and my pride to stalk on you for hours. 
Despite the fact u have punished me for something that i've never meant, I still care for you, wanting to know everything that happens around you.
Now, I'm glad that u've shown me a way out from this awkward relationship. Hence, I gotta block you. I wish we were strangers.Yes we were, and we still.
Sincerely,The Emo-ing Me. :(

kenape weh.. dah tak snggup. hari2 aku update pasal ko. tak dapat cakap or msj pun takpe la.. kenape smpai tahap nk letak dalam restricted friend? whts the point of being your fb's friend?? oh. fb's friend dont necessarily be a friend, a real life? hancur hati. xkesah la utk beberape kali. sbb dah terlalu skit ati, bile bkk  page ko, rase mcm kene block sume bnde. so, i gotta block you. not for preventing you from seeing my page, but, to prevent my self. yes. my self. ko tau tak, i aku punye syg kat kau, hari2 bkk fb kau. but u did this! thanx bestfriend. my ex-bestfriend.

take care stranger.

i will never become part of them. until the end.

isolated. isolation. isolating myself after being isolated. i'm hurt.

semput! thesis is still in progress

alamak. ape aku buat nii.. adoi.. i only have less than 6 hours to finish up my RAW THESIS. without spss analysis. ntah la. pasrah!.

maybe u can diagnose me as a patient of attention deficit disorder! my mind is always wondering around. couldnt concentrate after half an hour. i feel so anxious tht i can never finish up my thesis.

at first, i tot of repeating all the test.. i wanna do a better test, with a better result, including all strains of bacteria which i am supposed to do at the beginning of the semester. urgh. i ended up with only p.aeruginosa and e.coli. i repeat, ONLY!.

i know my SV is damn frustrated with me. i'm frustrated with myself too. but what can i do? i never expect this to happen. OH THE WORST THING IN MY LIFE!

how am i going to sell myself with this poor-quality-final-year-project. i'm afraid that i will fail again.

these are all stuffs that were piled up in my head.

whatever, i'm just going to do my best. yes, my best! going to send my SUPER RAW thesis to my SV tmrw. nid to write a letter to my 'beloved' mentor, mentioning about passing up the thesis at the end of next week instead of compulsarily-monday.

and random thing here is.. i miss you Azeem. ops i miss you too Azli (rindu tak terhingge kat abg)

And Azeem, dah 4 bulan tak dengar berite since he sent me this

"lupekan sume janji sy, sy janji sy takkan ganggu dan contact awak lagi. maafkan saya" (lebih kurang la)

oh, my heart still broken due to the loss of a great bestfriend. he's one of them. the only boy-bestfriend i've ever had. i got to knew him online, we have known each other since last year in May. i met him for the first time, unexpectedly, in last november. he is ordinary. funny. and can be BLOODY ANNOYING for making  stupid jokes, and calling me at 3am almost everynight.  i never be that annoyed with anyone except him. the most important thing is, he gave me moral supports when i'm having a huge crisis my cik abang. and now, everytime my boyfriend went sailing, his memories keep hurting me. i'm hurt since i know there is no other way for me to contact him again.

i miss you aquada90z@yahoo.com

;'(

yeyey

alhamdulillah.

walaupun still banyak keje tak siap. thesis takde result. report tak hanta lagi. and esok nak present walaupun lansung tak prepare ape2 lagi.. i feel grateful.

esok nk present.. just nk google more about PCR thingy. and prepare the scripts.

tmrw's gonna meet my supervisor. i planned to do disc diffusion method. and MIC. going to tell him this.

alhamdulillah. semua bende ade hikmah. Tuhan takkan bagi dugaan yang hambaNya tak mampu utk lalui.

I miss my ikan keli besar. sangat2 bahagie walaupun aku slalu je wat hal. wat prangai.. marah2 sbb thesis.

thanx Allah. die sgt memahami for the time being. i love u. die suke sgt manjekan udang cergas ni.. ngee.. 

xoxo~

hampeh.

battleship? mmg hampeh. bkn cite tu yg hampeh.. tapi hampeh sbb sume plan ntah ke mana... -_- balik je meeting smlm terus tido.

harini tak sempat buat lab sbb tgu awek...and then..mls nk rush balik lab. kunci pun tak amik lagi.
in the end, minggu ni lansung tak buat lab.
tp tadi time karok, memang diva abes la.. hujan pun tak turun.. maksudnye suare dah sedap. wohoooooooo!!! ahaks.

hmm..byk gile keje yg due date die overlapping. satu mlm ni. satu esok, satu lagi sabtu? lab?
sempat ke nak grad..

**hantuk2 kepale kat dinding**


xoxo~pale hotak kau. haha. adios.

hello diary.

since none of ppls out there are reading my blog, i guess this could be a sign tht i can write (and yell out) my problems here...

heh. kojo xsiap lagi oiiii.. dari tadi duk buat poster Huntington's disease. and now..

these are the tasks tht i must finish before i go to faculty tmrw.

urgh.

- edit ppt of genetic analysis of Huntington's disease (HD)

- buat words of HD genetic analysis

- buat ppt of case study + librium side effects

- buat wordsssss of case study.

hoh.boley siap keeee...?? ado2. pecah pale. i'll try my best. tak tido pun takpela. errr..

AS A REWARD, PEGI PESTA BUKU @ BORDERS @ BATTLESHIP! hoyeahh.. go mila go.

xoxo~

Arabian night~

this dinner is fantastic. however, there are certain things.. unwanted ones.. tht happened on the nite.
-mimi was not there. i'm alone. not really alone. but always be left alone.
-i left my camera. so i nid to be a busybody in everybody's pitcha..
-... xdapat amik gambar dgn sume org.

so.. these are some of my favourite photos of Arabian Night. tadaaaa~~~

with pey yu jie.

i love this effect! me-aimi-sheila

me & my girls

some of malay girls (sorg je bkn malay..lol..consider malay je la sheila..hehe)

a close up of me~
susah payah make up camni.. haha.. it took me abt 1 hrs, for eyes only.

xoxo~

JIA YOU.

 tenkiyu for those yg bagi semangat. Alhamdulillah.. ade jugak motivations dr org len. including deq rady la.. walaupun die ckp aku slalu men fb. hmmm.. oke la tu.

YOUR GOING TO DO YOUR BEST ENGKU SHARMILA!!! BASSSYAAAAA!!

xoxo~

BURST!

harini dah dua kali burst pasal thesis takde result lagi. rase nk terjun bgnn woo bile kte dh korbankan macam2.. tp still tak tau kat mane salah silap kite..

i did my best!
but it seems i havent done my best. i nid to do more! and more.

ya Allah.. Kau tabahkanlah hatiku. Tak pernah sangke final year is this torturing. rase sgt2 bersalah kat SV, geran takde result lagi.. bulan depan nk present dah. ya Allah.. ape aku nak present.. berilah aku kesempatan.. aku nak grad.. nk konvo.. but for that i nid to be strong. AKU KENE SIAPKAN SUME LABWORKS.

pseudomonas aeruginosa, e.coli. s.aureus, s.epid, and salmonella typhi.. pliz be nice to me. Help me ya Allah.

#buntu#

mood pictas.

dinner mode is activated! pheww~~~
xoxo~

dia lagi

harap maaf. skang ni mmg tgh kemaruk.

xoxo~

insomniac plus ridiculous starvation.

kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........ottoke.

dari tadi asyik makan..makan..makan.. dan mkn..

tapi..
asgmnt xsiap lagi.
baju tak lipat lagi.
meja tak kemas lagi.
labworks tak siap lagi
apetah lagi thesis writing la kan?

nooooo.. u cant continue to be like E.S!
byk sgt keje pending.. sobs.

harini tak boleh tido...well sengaje tanak tido actually. dah telan neslo pekat. and konon2 nk wat keje.. last2 end up tulis kat blog ni. muahahahha. **sile ketuk sikit kpale ni**

tukang motivator sudah tido. i miss my ikan keli besar!

chomel tak??? hehehe...

so far, you have changed a lot, dearie! waiting for the moments of our love to be official and legal!




xoxo~

why why why. ada apa dengan name blog?

The Luna's Alstroemeria.

Alstroemeria is the name of a flower, symbolizing true friendship. or you can say it also symbolizes true, long-lasting relationship, regardless what kind of relationship involved.

Now, through out years of friendship/love relationship..we grew. Hardshipness especially and other moments taught me many things. so.. you can say this blog is sort of my life journey's highlights.

About LUNA, it came out from Sailor Moon series. Luna is a cat which is very loyal to her owner, Sailor Moon. (I'm a freak cat lover too!). And the only reason i chose Luna is because i love Sailor Moon. peace.

**actually, the title is all RANDOM. haha.. this is just the post created when i felt bored.

xoxo~

i love you

xoxo~

And all i need is you

never thought this meaningless-ed friendship would become the champion of Heart Oscar's Awards.
your silly jokes and childish-selfishness overcome the love poems sang by Endymion.

after losing you,
after realising i would never find a way to get in contact with you again..even for the last time..

two or maybe three out five beats of my heart are yours.

i miss you.


xoxo~

cerita dalam cerite.. oh its fake. sile jgn percaye. or maybe dun read it at the first place.

i'm back for a reason.
to be a story teller. this is a story.. just a story.. so dun just believe it. find it out yourself before u blame me for telling such a JOKE.

paaaaaada satu hari.. errr.. tak sesuai.. paada tahun 2004..
cik langit(14 thun) and adiknya, budak pelangi(10tahun) pulang ke kampung halaman bertempat di Seberang Laut. diorang kalau balik kampung mmg tak hingat dunia. pegi sane sini..mmg tak melekat kat umah atuk nenek. Atuk sgt manjekan Budak Pelangi. Cik Langit pulak cucu sulong.. so ofcoz la lagi manje kan.. :D

tpi time tu bulan puase. takde la berjalan sane sini sgt kan... stay kat umah je la.. Budak Pelangi pulak tak sihat sgt. satu hari, Atuk Busu dtg umah.. (umah atuk). Bukan senang Cik Langit & Budak Pelangi nak balik kampung..so, Atuk Busu ajak la diorg balik umah, tido kat umah Atuk Busu..meronggeng naik motor.

Time bulan puase kan ade pasar.. so singgah la pasar dulu. Banyak gile Atuk Busu beli kuih utk diorg. yg paling best, buah anggur! yes.. buah anggur mmg sedaaappp.. sampaikan Budak Pelangi tak reti nk tunggu waktu berbuka..abis die telan. pastu.. muntah2.. well biase la.. budak pelangi, mkn ape pun muntah2.. Tetibe Atuk call Cik Langit.. Cik Langit cakapla.. Budak Pelangi wat prangai balik (muntah2).

3 hours ago..seblum bukak puase.. Atuk muncul kat umah Atuk Busu. Nak amik Budak Pelangi.. Abistu, Cik Langit mcm mane?? mmg la anak Atuk Busu ade utk temankan Cik Langit, tapppiiii... Cik langit nak ikut Budak Pelangi. so.. akhirnye, Cik langit pun balik umah jugakk... tinggal la atuk Busu dngn  family die.. mmg nampak die frust.. tp Cik Langit nk stay dengan Budak Pelangi.

so... the story ends. eh.. pendek gile. And macam takde makne. But you are wrong.

cerite ni lah penghulu segale cerite. Atuk Busu mula terase dengan Atuk.

Sebab Cik langit!

sume silap Cik Langit.. kenapelah Cik Langit tak pernah tefikir yg Atuk Busu akan terase gila2 smpai sanggup buat mcm2 kat Atuk. dah lebih 6 tahun.

Atuk tak salah..

Cik Langit yang slah sbb ikut Budak Pelangi balik.. Cik Langit syg Atuk Busu. Cik langit laaaaagi sayang Atuk. Atuk yg iqamatkan Cik Langit. Tapi Atuk dah tak ade. Atuk Busu tak penah mintak maaf kat family Cik Langit. kat Nenek Cik Langit. Cik langit sedih sgt.

Semua org taknak percaye Cik Langit. Cik Langit punca Atuk Busu jadi mcm ni. termakan hasutan syaitan laknatullah. Semua saudara mara Cik Langit lansung tak percaya. Atuk Busu kebal. ckp ape2 pun tak guna. Semua org "syg" Atuk Busu. and you know why. sihir.

Ya Allah, jauhkan la keluarga ku dari perkara terkutuk ini ya ALLah. Semoga roh atuk aman. Atuk tak salah. Cik Langit redha.. Cik langit rindu atuk. Cik Langit cume nk smpaikan cerite ni je. sekadar cerite.


-kakak syg tokki-



xoxo~